It all felt muddled at the beginning of the week.
You know when little things bother you more than they should and you don’t think that clearly? All the demands feel a bit too much and a bit out of order.
That was me at the start of the week and I wasn’t quite sure why. In talking with friends I heard myself saying how this work I’m taking on at the moment, is harder but I believe God is in it. It feels like a bit of a spiritual battle, would they pray for me? They of course agreed but I left thinking, when was the last time I carved out time to just be with God, worship him and let him order my chaos?
Everyone is different in how they connect with God; but I always have through singing, being on my own with God and writing some stuff down. I’m very privileged now to be in a job where I’m encouraged to take time to pray, but recently I have talked to God on the hop, in the car, in prayer meetings with others but not carved out that time to be with him alone. Jesus was so good at this, taking time to restore his soul by going away to be with his Father.
15 Yet the news about him spread all the more, so that crowds of people came to hear him and to be healed of their sicknesses
16 But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed.
I was reminded of something I heard Ali Martin say in the summer. How would your attitude to that time be different if you really understood how much the Lord longs to be with you, for you to enjoy his presence, to restore you and lavish love on you?
I decided the next day that I would stay at home (ignoring all jobs that needed doing) before heading into work, to sing and pray. I was there for two hours! In which I cried, wrote, sang loud, sat in silence and God restored me. He came to meet with me. He reminded me of the promise I cling to:
“And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” (Matt 28v20)
However big or small the things before me, HE is WITH me. His kindness, love, forgiveness, mercy, strength, wisdom and goodness are FOR me.
The rest of this week I have prayed out loud to invite God into the tricky things I’ve had ahead of me, and I feel he has ordered the things that needed it. I’ve taken ten minutes on busy days to sit on the floor in my office (when I’m alone!) to prioritise Him. It has made such a difference.
I am well aware that we are all at different stages of our journeys as mums and carving out time to spend connecting with God is not easy. When I looked at my journal I hadn’t had this time with God since July, so I’m no expert and this is no guilt trip. It’s just I can see the impact of it so clearly this week I wanted to share it with you guys. What does it look like for you this week? A walk with God in your lunch break? Time with God when your child naps? Prioritising that first hour after you get the kids to school before you pick up the washing basket?
Whatever way it works for you (running, singing, painting, talking…) God is longing to connect with you this week. Don’t leave it as long as I have, let your Good Father restore you and bring you life.