Due to a combination of tiredness, hormones and a sinful heart I have spent lots of the day wrestling with some questions around contentment and comparison.
I’m currently reading a book (The envy of Eve) with some good, wise friends of mine. Today we hit a chapter about money and possessions and I ended up blubbering pretty much through the whole chapter (which is an excruciating, embarrassing and always humbling habit of mine!)
To give some context, I grew up in a large family with very little money. We were loved greatly and my mum and dad always faithfully pointed us to Jesus as our greatest treasure. Even as a child, I remember struggling with those friends of mine who had more.
Over the years God has been revealing to me more and more how my joy and hope and treasure isn’t found in houses or opportunities or lifestyles – it’s found in Jesus! Isn’t that amazing, that because Jesus alone is our treasure, rich or poor we are all equal in Gods Kingdom.
I think it struck me today that deep down I can sometimes believe the lie that I am ‘less’ as I compare myself to others who I perceive to have more.
When I allow myself to go down the ugly and dangerous road of comparison, I allow myself to start believing the lie that my worth and my joy and my happiness is found in stuff and circumstances. It’s what the whole world says over and over to us, every day, everywhere we look – even in the church.
I spent some time today bringing that lie to God, saying sorry that I have allowed this lie to seep into my heart a little – and asking God to refill me with his truth that Jesus absolutely is enough and I’m absolutely enough in him!
I don’t know if this resonates with anyone but as we, daughters of God seek to live Kingdom lives let’s pray that God gives us spiritual eyes to see the emptiness of worldly possessions in comparison to the incredible greatness of knowing Jesus. Let’s pray that we trust God with providing exactly what we need (& wow, how I have known Gods faithfulness!). Let’s be thankful for his provision and enjoy it, rejoicing when God provides for others.
However I’m challenged to be careful about how I communicate about possessions and circums
tances and not to give them a false value in our lives or other peoples. Let’s be kingdom pursuers, who live so counter culturally and who constantly remind each other that Jesus is the real treasure.
Treasures in Heaven
19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.
20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.
21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.